It has begun to get quite cold here and a lot of snow is forecast for the weekend. The barrel used to gather rainwater in the garden has a solid layer of ice on top. It reminded me of this passage, about how we can feel when problems and accompanying difficult emotions turn our warm heart - or our courage - into a solid frozen mass within us.
Our habits and patterns can feel just as frozen as ice. But when spring comes, the ice melts. The quality of water has never really disappeared, even in the deepest depths of winter. It just changed form. The ice melts, and the essential fluid, living quality of water is there. Our essential good heart and open mind is like that. It is here even if we're experiencing it as so solid we could land an airplane on it.
When I'm emotionally in midwinter and nothing I do seems to melt my frozen heart and mind, it helps me to remember that no matter how hard the ice, the water hasn't really gone anywhere. It's always right here.
So I work on melting that hardness by generating more warmth, more open heart. A good way for any of us to do this is to think of a person toward whom we feel appreciation or love or gratitude. In other words, we connect with the warmth that we already have. If we can't think of a person, we can think of a pet, or even a plant. Sometimes we have to search a bit. But as Trungpa Rinpoche used to say, "Everybody loves something. Even if it's just tortillas." The point is to touch in to the good heart that we already have and nurture it.
Pema Chodron, Shambala Sun, 1998
